Good day. I am Aleksander, Adventist from Russia. Would you read my prayer request.

Recently I have known that it is possible that my mother have cancer please pray for her and for my parent’s everlasting salvation.

I am almost in despair as I am ill with schizophrenia, it is horrible and it steps back only when I drink psychotropic  tablets that also don’t let me to live normal life and have healthy sleep, my life is empty because of them. I want to free from schizophrenia so that I could live without tablets, please pray for that. Pray that I could know what to do and could have power to live victorious Christian life and to overcome my sins that are very grate. I also need very much to feel Gods presence in my life. I want to serve the Lord being healthy and I am still young for that. I am 33.

My problem is that I cannot know whether I am free from schizophrenia until I forsake tablets, but if I do that schizophrenia comes back and I get into mental hospital, and life there is horrible  so I am afraid to forsake tablets. Pray that if the Lord heals me from  schizophrenia that I and my parents could know that certainly even if I accept psychotropic  tablets that keep me far from my illness.

You know, once I met Christ face to face, that was in December 2004 by night, approximately at 12 a clock, but I did not stand up and talk with Him. He would certainly heal me from schizophrenia that time already thou that time I didn’t know that my illness is so deep. I have lost 7 years after that in vain. Now I am very sorrow about that, but Christ does not come back and heal me from my disease. More over I have sinned recently and think that Christ will not have the kindness to answer my prayers and to favour me as my sin is great. And more over won’t come to me again and heal me from my disease. I think that Christ will heal me only if I see him face to face but it is difficult for me to live so that the Lord would come to me again, sometimes I try to fast as I did before his first approaching to me but he does not come and heal. It is difficult for me to live and not to be in despair. Because of the tablets I almost do not communicate with my relatives and in the church. I am in sorrow when others rejoice, and I cannot pray, I am just silent for several seconds in the morning, then tell to Him a few standard words and then begin to research on Bible theme.

Because of my illness I cannot live by oneself and I do not know what will be with me when my parents die. Besides I am concerned about their everlasting life as there are not Adventists.

Thank you for your prayer, it is really very necessary and valuable to me. I often lose heart and think of suicide. I hope that you will pray for me as long as possible.